Back again after 2 years and 2 kgs heavier !! Some coincidences are just not nice!
On the good news side, we have had a baby boy who is now a naughty, cranky, mischievous, lovely 15 month old...OK..OK..I know this post is not about him.
Oh boy, I do miss being pregnant...the reason being that I was always being told to eat, eat and eat! And my OH would actually be pleased when I started putting on which for once I did very slowly!

Anyway, am allowed 1300 calories this time as I am BF a little.

Not going to speak too much, as much strength is there in silence but will keep on updating .

War

The darkness has just increased. Its chocolate colored darkness..makes me feel miserable and so low. Just when I think I have it figured out, things are taking a U turn...why is it so difficult ? Why is it not easy?
I will get back here only when I have conquered this war...

Day 1..Its still dark

Its still dark on this road I have started upon..Am hoping that writing a blog would shed some light. Its a lonely journey on my own..and more importantly, alone I am not getting anywhere...need support, motivation...in my quest to be a healthy again. I tried to talk about this to my husband..You are allowed to laugh at my innocence...Of course, it didnt help...the only helpful thing hes said till now is that I am on my way to becoming like that half ton person whom we saw on TV. And he had once (long long ago) called me a poem and himself the poet...hence the name of my URL.
I have never been really thin and I like to think never been really fat either...but the kilos have been piling up the last few years and I keep on worrying about them and everytime I start doing something, I just end up going one step forward and two behind...translates into more kilos!!!
And in the last one year, have really become addicted to chocolate..its actually my poison now.
So, what should I do now...first of all, 1) I am going to try the simple strategy of watching my calories..1200 a day sounds about right for me to consistently lose weight. 2) And NO white sugar in any form (tht cuts off all chocolates)..3) and 20 minutes of exercise daily ..last but not least 4) Log into the blog regularly and help myself to support and motivation!
At 5'3", weighing 68 kgs at the minute...all the extra kilos are absolutely in the wrong place..makes me look short and fat, dull and boring and worse, make me lazy and inactive:((
But everything in life comes with an expiry date..and so does this situation..I am surely going to turn this around....